It wasn’t an easy decision to become a stay-at-home Mom..
5 years ago – I arrived in Ireland. 5 years ago – I started working with one of the biggest IT firms in the world. Blessed might be an understatement to what I have achieved and experienced in the past 10 years of my career. However, similar to what my Mom told me before getting married – things do change the moment you become a mother.
A couple of weeks ago, I made a HUGE decision to leave my full-time work and become a stay-at-home Mom. It wasn’t easy but blessed my husband supported me. It took me weeks and months of constant inner battles with myself causing me stress, sometimes unhappiness, and the never ending feeling of being mediocre in all things I do. I felt that no matter what I do, there is always something neglected – either my son or work. It led me to become increasingly unhappy about the situation too often, too.
To be fair, I am extremely lucky to have had understanding managers and colleagues at work. But there were times issues with childcare arrangement and business at work come in at the same time – and those days weren’t easy. Work still needs to be sorted and my son still needed to be taken care of. And during these days, I always reach my breaking point. And in my son’s three-year existence, I can’t count how many times it happened already. Those days made me think whether doing it to myself is even worthwhile.
I never thought I’d leave the workforce early – I am still very young. Although, I’ll admit I thought about leaving work a lot of times in the past and have “planned” when to do it. I didn’t plan to leave this early, though. But, given the upcoming changes for our family, this might’ve been the perfect time to do it.
So for now, I will enjoy my time with my son. For sure, I will have moments – it is part of the stay-at-home Mom challenge anyway. But, I can’t be happier knowing that I can only focus on him and nothing else! Coming back to the workforce is something I have in mind. And if the right opportunity comes along, I will definitely consider it. Who knows, it might happen sooner than I think it would be!